it was the last day of one of my closest friends at work, but the funny thing is i dont feel sad. maybe its because i know we would still be hanging out. well, to be honest, i dont know what to feel. i guess i really haven't prepared myself for this.

lets see. how big of a change this will lead to.

last night we finally went to little tokyo. ever since i moved to makati in 2006, i have always wanted to go there. and i took more than 3 years before i could finally eat there. the food was great and the ambiance was very japanese. afterwards, we went to greenbelt to get dessert in cafe breton.

i cant think of a segway but here it goes. i will be having my first stamp on my passport next month. i am set to go to hong kong on november. and yes, i am talking like i already have a passport. i dont have a passport yet, which is so stupid right. haha. anyway, i will be getting one in the next few days - i promise. plus i am so excited to get one since it is a valid ID. woohoo!

i dont have a lot to say. so i think this is it.

the end.

one by one, more and more of the people i know at work are moving on, or should i say leaving.

in as much as i am happy that the people coming in are nice people, it has really been hard building new relationships with people.

the big problem that i am seeing is that it is the good people that are leaving, which is nothing surprising given that they are 'good'. they would definitely find better opportunities elsewhere.

it has been 3 years and 4 months since i started at thomson. i remember my first day when i had my HR orientation. i absorbed nothing from the orientation. i also remember the night before that. i kept thinking if they would like me. would they hate my sarcasm? would they realize quickly that i am a slacker? haha

i remember the many times i was reminded that i was no longer in school, which kept me asking myself. was there really any difference? up to now, i still see no difference.

now i can easily count using my two hands the people that were there before me when i started working at thomson.

i cant wait to see whats in store for me? when i was a recent graduate in 2006, i was already considered for a job in hong kong, singapore and thailand but was of course denied. they found me too inexperienced. i am excited to see if they is any difference. i am sure there is. there will be a difference because i have worked for more than 3 years in this field. there will be a difference because i now have a masters degree. there will be a difference because i believe i have matured.

there will be a difference - i know it!

it was almost two years since i started working that i felt this level of stress.

its really frustrating that you have to answer to difficult people. yes i admit that i am difficult as well, but thats is only because i dont act when the direction is not clear. it is difficult for me to take the word of just anybody.

this actually backfired today. a colleague in hong kong did not take my word for it when i made an executive decision regarding a client. my colleague did not take my word when i asked him what to do about the situation. it was frustrating because i really made sure that i was thorough about it. i see where the person was coming from. i was new at the position where i am now. dealing with clients is pretty serious especially with the current business environment.

the reason was pretty clear. i have not developed a good track record yet in terms of handling client issues.

another stressful factor is how difficult people have been. i have never gotten along with this person from the start. i find him very close minded. i also understand why he thinks that way. dealing with him feels like he is a father who is forcing his decisions to his son and saying i should follow it because he is older and he knows a lot more than i am. which is very stupid. i dont know why people think they are so right in their decisions. i dont even understand why people are at places where they are now.

to add to that is this feeling i have today. it feels sad but i have no reason to be sad. hmmm... nah, i think its just the gloomy weather. is it really? haha... my friend in the office told me that i am very negative today. i do, i admit that but i dont know why.

oh wait... before i forget, its nice that our telecom client did not respond before 6pm. in fact, they have no reply up to now. that the only good news today.

anyway, classes are suspended this week so this means more make up classes. BS! haha..

i woke up this morning with colds. damn.

i hope this will be gone before my trip to Cebu and Bohol this Friday. sheesh

by the way, i will have to thank my friend for allowing us to stay at their place in cebu.

yesterday early morning, my sister told me about how stupid rep. mikey arroyo committed media suicide by allowing him to be toasted by my college professor solita monsod on national television.

before i continue, let me share my experience with professor monsod. she was my professor during my first semester at the UP School of Economics. the first time she read out the class roster, she wanted to see who this one student was. the student with the name Isosceles Mori - me. she was curious how i ended up getting my name. she said that if she would get the chance to have a child, she would give the same name. haha

going back... i watched mikey arroyo's interview with monsod and this other gma news anchor on youtube. it was so obvious that monsod was out to get him. it was also very obvious that congressman arroyo was getting very uncomfortable. he showed how immature he was as a politician.

in as much as i would want to hope that there is no corrupt politician out there, i believe there is no politician that is not corrupt. am i being to cynical? no. one way or another, a politician will have to make a decision that is least corrupt - but corrupt nonetheless. politics to me is like sacrificing your soul. its a matter of doing more good things than bad, so long as the net effect is positive. when i say positive, this of course refers to social welfare.

and, politicians are still people. like how i am to everyone, i judge the actions and not them as people.

allow myself to elaborate on this. i believe that people are unpredictable. even if we say that, historically, 99.99% of the time, person A will choose option 1 and not option 2. there is still that 0.01% that person A will choose option 2. we are sure that there will be that instance wherein option 2 will be chosen. it is only a question of time. and this where i base my choice to judge people with their actions and not label them with the choices that they make. plus, you have to admit, it is safer that way.

so the next question is - what can make you a good politician? even if there is a politician out there that is indeed not corrupt, i dont think that makes that person a good politican. submitting yourself to public service is not a career. i believe you can be the best you can be as politician if you are ready to sacrifice your own wants and placing the needs of the people on top. make decisions because you believe it can benefit the greatest number of people over longest possible time.

this is probably the reason why i dont see myself in politics. i dont think i can make that sacrifice. i have so much things that i want to do. maybe when i get to accomplish them all, i might consider politics. for now or the near future, i dont think so.

again, politics is not a career.